Gay Awareness?

With the whole CA. "Proposition 8" going on, you can't help but turn your head and see it everywhere on the news.

I believe I watched a good four television shows today on Gays.

Okay, I know I'll probably lose some readers because I'm going to state my opinon. Gay marriage is flat out wrong, and I'm sick of hearing about it. I was rasied in a very conservative christian home... and though I am my OWN person. My opinion stays the same. I myself am a republican, just as my family... I've tried and tried to accept gay marriage, but I just can't seem to find the power to do so. Therefore my gut feeling is telling me it's wrong.

As a human, your purpose in life is to create. Which obviously you can't do when your partner is of the same sex. I understand you may love that person, and I'm not telling you you can't. You just don't need to be married. Marriage is sacred. Please don't take that away from us. You can call your relationship whatever you want. But do not dare call it a marriage. That is for a man and a woman, which is how God planned. A woman needs a man. A man needs a woman. And children need a mother and father.

Ghost.

James L. Mock "Ghost Black"

April 8th 1988 - May 19th 2007

My friend, you are truely missed.

From The Dead.

Don't worry kids, I'm still alive. I know I haven't posted since easter but life has been pretty crazy.

Let me sum it up. Move into my own place, by the fourth night someone broke into my home. I said fuck that and moved back with my parents. I got another job as a waitress at the county club. Love it. I still work at the office so I'm pretty busy. Just found out my sister is finally moving back home...to the city. I'm excited as all hell. I've been busy helping with getting the house in shape for my parents anniversary party at the end of the month. I became single, then "complicated", to taken, to single...now just confused. I've still yet to go for my damn CNA testing..hopefully soon. My best friend is pregnant, and getting married. I'm excited for that as well!! All in all I'm going crazy. But I'll keep yall posted.

One month, Six days until 21st Birthday.

Happy Easter.

I hope all of you had a wonderful holiday!
I did the whole go to church thing, and then dinner at Grandma's house. It was lovely. Though every holiday is pretty hard without my older sister around. She's been living in another state for about eight months now, but good news is, there is a GOOD chance she is moving back to Pennsylvania this summer. Hurrah!

Sorry guys, I've been hella busy, not much time to blog. As foir a little update I currently moving into my new apartment (house) with a few of my close friends. I can't wait! Also I just found out some good news...I can have my old job back. Which will bring in extra cash for shit around the house. Wee!

But, I guess I should get back to packing. I'll post in entry when I'm all settled in.



I hate the fact that I feel guilty for leaving him. I hate the WAY he makes me feel guilty for leaving him. Sometimes it's worse to be the dumpee than the one dumped. But if could only understand that I'm still searching for myself, and I don't want to be held back from things I want to do.

What The F*^%?

It's the month of April. It's fucking snowing. Mother fucker I'm so sick of being COLD. I just want some sunshine. I had to fake bake today, just to get some UV rays. Gah.
Well like is pretty crazy right now. I had my last day working at the hospital, (thank god) now I'm just debating on whether I should apply for a nurse aide job, or take my old job back in respite care. I think to think this one out.

On a personal note, I'm taking steps into my future. Along the way I'm hitting some bumps that hit pretty hard. But I keep picking my head up and continue walking. I know there are those of you who I'm going to let down, but in the end...for the first time, I have to do something for myself. To better MYSELF. That's the thing with growing up. You realize everything isn't always going to be fine and dandy, you have to do things that will hurt but will end up more positive for you down the road. I feel just a little stronger. I think I'm another step closer to being the woman I want to be.

World Autism Awareness Day

Today is April 2nd, 2009. World Autism Awareness Day.

"World Autism Awareness Day shines a bright light on autism as a growing global health crisis. WAAD activities help to increase and develop world knowledge of the autism epidemic and impart information regarding the importance of early diagnosis and early intervention. Additionally, WAAD celebrates the unique talents and skills of persons with autism and is a day when individuals with autism are warmly welcomed and embraced in community events around the globe." -World Autism Awareness Day

As some of you may know Autism Awareness is very important to me. I have three family members who have been diagnosed with Autism. Yes they may be different from you and I. But they are just as beautiful and wonderful. It's important that YOU know all that you can about Autism.

April Fool's Day!

I did it. I passed my CNA classes. For a moment there I was pretty scared. I totally screwed up the skills test. For some reason I seem to forget everything I've learned...when someone is WATCHING me. I just made it by 3% ...Then the written part of the test...I did, fucking, awesome. Totally saved my ass. But...I did it! I can actually say I'm proud of myself.
So now I'm a nurses aide...who is awaiting state testing. I just can't wait to get out there on the floor and use everything that I've learned. This class has motivated me to go back to college.

I kind of just wanted to give you guys a little update.
I'm off to work... Four more days of working then I'm done with that place. Dear Lord I can't wait.

Happy April Fool's Day!