Happy Easter.

I hope all of you had a wonderful holiday!
I did the whole go to church thing, and then dinner at Grandma's house. It was lovely. Though every holiday is pretty hard without my older sister around. She's been living in another state for about eight months now, but good news is, there is a GOOD chance she is moving back to Pennsylvania this summer. Hurrah!

Sorry guys, I've been hella busy, not much time to blog. As foir a little update I currently moving into my new apartment (house) with a few of my close friends. I can't wait! Also I just found out some good news...I can have my old job back. Which will bring in extra cash for shit around the house. Wee!

But, I guess I should get back to packing. I'll post in entry when I'm all settled in.



I hate the fact that I feel guilty for leaving him. I hate the WAY he makes me feel guilty for leaving him. Sometimes it's worse to be the dumpee than the one dumped. But if could only understand that I'm still searching for myself, and I don't want to be held back from things I want to do.

What The F*^%?

It's the month of April. It's fucking snowing. Mother fucker I'm so sick of being COLD. I just want some sunshine. I had to fake bake today, just to get some UV rays. Gah.
Well like is pretty crazy right now. I had my last day working at the hospital, (thank god) now I'm just debating on whether I should apply for a nurse aide job, or take my old job back in respite care. I think to think this one out.

On a personal note, I'm taking steps into my future. Along the way I'm hitting some bumps that hit pretty hard. But I keep picking my head up and continue walking. I know there are those of you who I'm going to let down, but in the end...for the first time, I have to do something for myself. To better MYSELF. That's the thing with growing up. You realize everything isn't always going to be fine and dandy, you have to do things that will hurt but will end up more positive for you down the road. I feel just a little stronger. I think I'm another step closer to being the woman I want to be.

World Autism Awareness Day

Today is April 2nd, 2009. World Autism Awareness Day.

"World Autism Awareness Day shines a bright light on autism as a growing global health crisis. WAAD activities help to increase and develop world knowledge of the autism epidemic and impart information regarding the importance of early diagnosis and early intervention. Additionally, WAAD celebrates the unique talents and skills of persons with autism and is a day when individuals with autism are warmly welcomed and embraced in community events around the globe." -World Autism Awareness Day

As some of you may know Autism Awareness is very important to me. I have three family members who have been diagnosed with Autism. Yes they may be different from you and I. But they are just as beautiful and wonderful. It's important that YOU know all that you can about Autism.

April Fool's Day!

I did it. I passed my CNA classes. For a moment there I was pretty scared. I totally screwed up the skills test. For some reason I seem to forget everything I've learned...when someone is WATCHING me. I just made it by 3% ...Then the written part of the test...I did, fucking, awesome. Totally saved my ass. But...I did it! I can actually say I'm proud of myself.
So now I'm a nurses aide...who is awaiting state testing. I just can't wait to get out there on the floor and use everything that I've learned. This class has motivated me to go back to college.

I kind of just wanted to give you guys a little update.
I'm off to work... Four more days of working then I'm done with that place. Dear Lord I can't wait.

Happy April Fool's Day!