Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Monday, June 1, 2009
I live in a small town. Everyone knows everyone elses business. Half the time they know more about you than YOU do. In this small town the people here feed upon drama. They love to hear gossip, and they LOVE to hear when someone is doing bad.. The worst part is...these are not people in there late teens, early twenties, these people are nearly thirty years old. Now remember, I myself am only twenty (twenty one in two weeks.) therefore they all have some years on me. But the sad part is, I've come to realize that my maturity level is much higher than theirs. You have person a.) A girl I was good friends with until I found out she was talking about me behind my back, what a good friend she was. Though our friendship didn't last, she continued a friendship with my older sister. Until one day she decided to get shitfaced and tell the whole town a bunch of lies about my sister...for no good reason. Oh well...fuck her. person b.) Mr. Alcoholic/Useless used to be good friends with person a.) which is who she ran her mouth off to, knowing he's a big mouth, knowing eventually it would come back to me. So person b.) tells person c.) Oh dear, this is a good one. This person is a complete psycho, who does not understand the meaning of a one night stand. Person c.) hooks up with person d.) who has no interest in her, but was drunk...she goes completely psycho when she finds out I was dating person d.) ...she is still crazy and still stalking him... but anyway person c.) makes up a bunch of bull shit lies about me to get person d.) to hate me..which would never happen because I'm putting out and he's my best friend... so now everyone hates person d.) which is my fault? Hmm... This is really odd because I have not spoken to any of these because besides d.) in months...but someone I come out of nowhere and start problems without saying a word? I hate this town.
So, did I confuse the fuck out of you?
Friday, May 29, 2009
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Don't worry kids, I'm still alive. I know I haven't posted since easter but life has been pretty crazy.
Let me sum it up. Move into my own place, by the fourth night someone broke into my home. I said fuck that and moved back with my parents. I got another job as a waitress at the county club. Love it. I still work at the office so I'm pretty busy. Just found out my sister is finally moving back home...to the city. I'm excited as all hell. I've been busy helping with getting the house in shape for my parents anniversary party at the end of the month. I became single, then "complicated", to taken, to single...now just confused. I've still yet to go for my damn CNA testing..hopefully soon. My best friend is pregnant, and getting married. I'm excited for that as well!! All in all I'm going crazy. But I'll keep yall posted.
One month, Six days until 21st Birthday.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
I hope all of you had a wonderful holiday!
I did the whole go to church thing, and then dinner at Grandma's house. It was lovely. Though every holiday is pretty hard without my older sister around. She's been living in another state for about eight months now, but good news is, there is a GOOD chance she is moving back to Pennsylvania this summer. Hurrah!
Sorry guys, I've been hella busy, not much time to blog. As foir a little update I currently moving into my new apartment (house) with a few of my close friends. I can't wait! Also I just found out some good news...I can have my old job back. Which will bring in extra cash for shit around the house. Wee!
But, I guess I should get back to packing. I'll post in entry when I'm all settled in.
I hate the fact that I feel guilty for leaving him. I hate the WAY he makes me feel guilty for leaving him. Sometimes it's worse to be the dumpee than the one dumped. But if could only understand that I'm still searching for myself, and I don't want to be held back from things I want to do.
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Well like is pretty crazy right now. I had my last day working at the hospital, (thank god) now I'm just debating on whether I should apply for a nurse aide job, or take my old job back in respite care. I think to think this one out.
On a personal note, I'm taking steps into my future. Along the way I'm hitting some bumps that hit pretty hard. But I keep picking my head up and continue walking. I know there are those of you who I'm going to let down, but in the end...for the first time, I have to do something for myself. To better MYSELF. That's the thing with growing up. You realize everything isn't always going to be fine and dandy, you have to do things that will hurt but will end up more positive for you down the road. I feel just a little stronger. I think I'm another step closer to being the woman I want to be.